I have been eating clean for over a year now but the last few weeks have been a big struggle for me
Writing my book and finding out that 3 of my siblings tried to commit suicide has unsettled me to the extent where I am emotional eating to feel a void in my stomach
When I was growing up food was severely restricted and sweets well what were those?
Am I sabotaging myself with all of this to make me feel fuller preparing myself for a drought??? something to go wrong??
I know that I am strong enough to get through anything but my behaviour tells me otherwise there is still that little girl inside that needs reassurance that life is going to be ok
I don’t like eating all this sugar it makes me feel ill
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