Good evening all,
I am just writing a quick blog today just to keep you all in the loop! I have just returned from camber Sands where I have been attending a fitness weekender.
There are classes on every hour…….spin, dance, pilates, toning, boxing etc etc. When I went to my first one Sally & I did a class every hour and could not walk for a good few days afterwards!
This weekend I only attempted 5 sessions, 2 of these were stretch, 1 was pilates, 1 circuits & 1 abs! It was more important to me to rest and catch up with my sleep which I did successfully!!
I also attempted to write some more of my story – which I managed a little.
At the moment I am trying to build my business and I cannot seem to do this and write my story without getting emotional. The emotions and feelings that I am facing are de-stabalising me and I am finding that I am questioning some of the decisions that I have made business wise and I am feeling overwhelmed and not good enough for what I am about to embark on :o(
I am sincerely hoping that this is temporary!! When I spend time writing the book I feel drained and unsettled for a little while.
I have spoken to Karen Laing who is helping me put ‘My Story’ together and we have decided that we are going to spend another 6 weeks on the book getting it to where we want it to be and then we are going to launch it :O)
So the end is in sight.
The feedback I have had so far is below:
“Just read my sister’s book that she going to publish…. its about our lives as youngster growing up from her point of view… it made me cry . Painful memories of 4 adults who let us down and brought hurt and torment in our lives. I take my hat off to her for what she doing”.
“I’ve just read what you sent me you some missing stuff that I remember and can add . This has made me cry tonight and my little Alex is saying don’t cry dad and rubbing my face. This makes me more determined to be a better person and father/husband and brother to my love ones.xxxxxx Dave Hallett
” I stayed up to 2am this morning reading your book. I was gripped it was really sad! But also inspiring. It has made me question how I talk to my children, it has made me think about my own upbringing and how my actions now have been affected by my parents.” Frances Malekos
“My overall feelings are I feel very moved by what I have read, even though you have told me quite a lot of things already. I also felt a great anger for all of you given the relentlessness of it all” Tanya Caffrey
So far I have managed to make people cry and be upset…..this is not what I wanted. I want to make people feel inspired to make a change, I want people to speak out, I want people to get help like I have if they need it! So this is what I need to work on!!
So some days I need to keep sane and just focus purely on business so I don’t end up procrastinating and making bad decisions, some days I just need to rest to recover from the turmoil of my feelings being unleashed from writing ‘My Story’ and my hypnotherapy. I need to just balance my life so that I can get through the next few weeks in one piece.
I am not going to lie it is getting harder and harder. I am investing alot of time and money and ME in getting this story out to you. I feel it is important for me, for my family and for those who are struggling on a day to day basis.
Please bear with me for the next 6 weeks and feel free to comment on my blogs :O)